Thursday, August 31, 2006
okay i saw another funny sight on my way to school today again.
lets see.
i see this guy, walking his dog.
.
.
.
.
and its RAINING.
soo.
he held an umbrella.
UHH?
poor dog.
okay so i'm in school now.
HAVE to complete my work by today and pass it to huiying/jiajia for submission.
urgh.
zzz.
flying off to thailand tmr.
HAHA.
shopping!
okay.
abby's here with me.
XD.
i abducted her.
LOL.
why jealous ar?
tooo bad.
okay i'm random.
nvm.
HAHA.
i'm bored.
later still have to go down to cafe.
ZZZ.
and its raining.
SO COLD CAN.
can.
okay BYE.
i think i'll go do my work now.
HAHA.
that's if abby is done with blogger.
me_________`e-leen *
11:46 AM
okay.
i was on my way home.
in the bus.
i saw.
a guy.
boarded the bus.
that's not the weird part.
the weird part is,
he's carrying a motorcycle helmet.
ERM?
okay.
IF he owns a motor,
which most likely he does cause i doubt the helmet is an accessory.
so why dont he drive his motor?
why have to take bus?
IF he just feel like taking bus,
THEN WHY MUST CARRY HIS HELMET AROUND?
omg.
maybe it IS an accessory.
hmm.
no comments.
okay.
i'm flying off to thailand soon.
YAY.
shopping.
me_________`e-leen *
12:28 AM
Monday, August 28, 2006
shalalala.
actually i have nothing to blog.
lol.
but i'm bored.
HAH.
okay lets see.
life sucks.
LOL.
i'm serious.
i went to Changi hospital for my eye check up.
stupid.
appointment time states 3.10pm.
i see the doc at 5.30pm.
WTF?
2hours?
great.
waste of my time.
grrr.
okay.
another reason why life sucks.
-you enjoy life.
-you live it to the fullest.
-you do and eat whatever you want.
-you get some life terminal disease like diabetes, cancer etc.
-you go for operation WHICH still cant save your life and costs like more than 5 digits.
-you can't work or do anything much.
-you sit at home and watch the dumb telly all day.
-you rot and wait to die.
-you FINALLY die.
THERE.
life sucks.
need more reasons?
okay.
-you work your life off your ass to earn enough just to eat.
-you eat like cup noodles almost everday.
-you eat that cause its the only thing you can afford.
-you save money and skip 5 cups of noodles and starve just to buy 4D.
-you bought the ticket but you lost it.
-you figure you probably won't win anything.
-you watch your super tiny telly.
-you WOULD have won 1st prize IF you didn't lost the ticket.
-CRY
-you quit 4D for like 5 days.
-you decided to give it another go.
-you won 1st prize [ supposedly AGAIN. but you lost the 1st ticket rmb? ]
-you won like, 1 million.
-you enjoy life.
-you eat whatever you want cause you can afford it now.
-you get some terminal diseases like diabetes, cancer etc.
-but this time at least you sit in front of your flat 42inches tv and rot.
-you wait to die.
-you FINALLY die.
WOW.
i AM bored.
i thought that all up myself?
cool.
next reason to why life sucks to the core.
-you were never the most popular girl in school.
-you so totally belong to the geek group.
-you have this HUGH crush on this super cute dude.
-this super cute dude has no interest in you and totally is disgusted with you.
-suddenly you were approached for
Extreme Makeover where they turn horrifyingly ugly people, which happens to be you, and make them just ugly without the horrifyingly.
-somehow you manage to look decent.
-the guy took notice of you, not because you are super hot now, but cause you appear on tv.
-he approached you and ask you for a date.
-you wear your nicest dress and actually look quite pretty.
-you saw him across the street.
-he smiles at you and starts to cross the road.
-halfway through this large truck SLAM into him.
-OUCH!
-bye bye super cute dude.
omg.
i'm a sadist.
LOL.
this is fun.
okay if you REALLY wanna know why life sucks.
you type
"why life suck" at
www.yahoo.com.
you MIGHT get the answer.
yeah.
i cant be bothered to list more reasons.
HAH.
me_________`e-leen *
10:27 PM
meet joshua at mrt station.
going to airport.
he go study.
i go do my art work.
HAHA.
at tanah merah mrt station,
while waiting for the train towards the airport.
he realised he dropped his phone in the taxi.
LOL.
called his phone.
1st time, no answer.
2nd time, the driver picked up.
nice uncle.
HAHA.
waited for him at bedok central taxi stand.
and he returned the phone.
BUT somehow joshua sounded like a pai kia.
LOL.
anyway, headed to airport.
reached at like 5?!
HAHA.
went to delifrance to do our work.
stupid boy.
never studied much la he.
play play play.
think he only studied like 30 mins.
and i finished my work.
yay.
HAHA.
alot of funny things happen.
HAHA.
went to Popeye's for dinner.
joshua's treat. =)
SO NICE.
haha.
went to take bus 27 to tampines.
played the "5, 10, 15" game on the bus.
lose 3 times hoot ear.
LOL.
played "hei bai pei" also.
lose step on foot.
LOL.
so funny can.
dropped in front of tampines library to walk to the interchange.
stupid boy keep playing boxing.
WITH FINGERS.
lol.
kept poking my head.
LOL.
idiot.
haha. so childish can.
went home.
HAHA.
me_________`e-leen *
12:49 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
bla bla.
nothing much to say.
i'm tired.
of waiting.
and waiting.
i dont know anymore.
so tired.
was on my way home from the cafe.
this guy and girl sitting behind me.
heard what the guy said.
found it VERY meaningful.
"i am not alone. but i am lonely"applies to me alot i guess.
its true i have alot of friends.
i know alot of people.
and most of the time i'm always with friends.
but sometimes even when i'm with a big group of people.
i can feel lonely.
but i know i'm not alone.
haha.
weird.
go figure.
maybe i should just like.
convert to a lesbian.
LOL.
hmm.
but what shirley said makes sense.
"its just alot easier to be a lesbian and turn to girls"
afterall.
girls are more sensitive.
SIGH.
i told shirley:
true.
but somehow i know i wont, and CAN'T turn to lesbianism.
i just cant.
urgh.
fricking dumb thing.
lalalala.
blogging this kind shit makes me emo.
BYE.
me_________`e-leen *
12:59 AM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
yesterday- 23 august
msged joshua at 2 plus.
he replied at 3pm.
"just woke up"
F5. [maple language. LOL.]
mortified. uhh. is that how you spell it?
nvm.
lol.
yea.
waited at small macs for him to prepare.
saw jieyun, wanli, cheryl, pearlyn.
okay or rather
HEARD.
lol.
i didn't see them.
i heard a chorus of high-pitched voices.
"eileennnnnnnnnn~"
yea.
how cool is that?
okay so they waited with me for joshua.
i told them joshua shuai.
then they excited.
LOL.
joshua came.
pearlyn kept di siao-ing him.
LOL.
pearlyn: *loudly* ORH ORH LAI LE HUH?
LOL.
wanli says joshua pai kia.
LOL
joshua: "shoo shoo"
LMAO.
so funny please.
took bus 23 down with joshua to the cafe.
HAHA.
whole bus trip he bully me lor.
from bus stop walked to cafe also bully me lor.
LOL.
okay la.
i use words wise to bully him.
he use visual wise to bully me back.
LOL.
cause everytime i said something.
he will stand
right beside meand he is like 1.83m.
LOL.
eileen: " YOU THINK YOU TALL LIAO BU QI AR"
joshua: "ZHENG YANG?? WO JIU SI BI NI GAO"
eeeyer.
lol.
somemore he wrote "eileen sux" on a piece of masking tape.
AND PASTED IT ON MY PHONE.
lol.
eeyer.
then he refused to take out his phone so i can paste "AH HUA" on HIS phone.
AHA.
meanie.
the tape is still there can.
i so nice.
my qing ai de upline write one.
so must keep.
LOL
according to him la.
LOL.
okay.
i'm off.
wahahas
me_________`e-leen *
1:56 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
i'm STRESSED.
i feel like MIA-ing.
ALOT.
actually DID plan.
where to go if i MIA and stuff.
no place to go leh.
=(
no money somemore.
job not stable yet.
and my family meant too much for me.
oh rather maybe just my younger sister and my mom.
i love them ALOT.
shucks. i'm tearing alreadyehh.
dammit.
stress can do weird things to ppl.
okay cool down.
*breathes in and out*
alright.
better.
stupid emo mood.
fuck off.
okay.
i need time.
seriously.
i cant even think properly.
what i did now is support.
and even my own parents aint doing it.
mentally yea.
but what's the use.
okay.
i'm stressed.
BYE.
// edit: thanks pei-ing me through half the night.
though i know i kinda msged you all kinda crap.
yea but thanks anyway.
i need someone that night.
SIGH.
me_________`e-leen *
1:44 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
went out with my girls today.
=)
fun.
saw joshua.
OMG.
trying to hide from him.
LOL.
cause i'm wearing a DRESS.
HAHA.
he'll tease for sure.
geez.
guys.
if i dont wear,
say i not feminine.
corlor, rough.
then when i wear,
they tease me.
WTH?
okay ya.
went town.
took neos.
overall a fun day la.
haha.
=)
me_________`e-leen *
8:51 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
i had a nightmare last night.
dreamt that abby got into an accident and left.
woke up crying like hell.
though i knew it was jus a dream.
but still.
cried for like one hour plus.
literally cried myself back to sleep again.
got me thinking.
if abby really leaves me one day,
i don't know what i'll do la.
i think i'll probably cry EVERYDAY.
i love her THAT much okay.
=)
hugs to abby.
dont leave me okay.
but of course if i can choose,
i'll rather you leave earlier than me.
cause i felt the pain of losing you last night,
though a dream.
and i dont want you to feel the same pain of losing me.
HAHA.
=)
LOVE YOU.
okay.
went down to the cafe today.
zz.
basically did nothing.
gahh.
henry, mr jimmy and mr jackie there.
ms joyce also.
annabelle left b4 i reached.
ZZ.
okay ya.
OHH.
i bought this new book.
-The Lake House-nope.
not the movie one.
same title.
but TOTALLY different story.
in fact if they made THIS book into a movie,
it probably will attrach ALOT of people.
about 6 lil childen.
genetically changed and breed.
with partially bird genes and human genes.
had human features.
but the most amazing thing is they have WINGS.
super nice book.
story on how, ppl sort them out,
for money reason,
for experimental reasons,
basically its a super NICE book.
=)
if i ever met a movie director i'll introduce this book to him.
i mean, while reading i can already visualise everything.
their silvery wings, slightly tinted with blue.
their cute faces.
OMG.
CONFIRM BOX OFFICE FLOODED.
nice book.
=)
yea.
went to tm with henry for dinner.
saw shirley, naz, nan, russell.
they just watched fast and furious .
ee.
i also wanna watch.
=(
okay.
went to find annabelle for awhile.
than went to cheryl's house awhile.
gave kelly auntie the brochure and talked awhile b4 leaving.
home.
DOING MY LIGHTING STUDIES NOW.
@#%^$&#^##%@#
stupid thing.
i'm probably gonna thon doing it.
ahhh.
BYE.
me_________`e-leen *
11:28 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
13 august.
just finished appointment.
yay.
wahahahs.
now at kerli's house.
=)
with wanli and cheryl.
BUT kerli not home.
LOL.
anyway.
planning puppetx stuffs.
next month our 3 months anniversary.
EXACTLY SAME DATE as my birthday.
how cool is that?
haha.
we formed on 12 june.
12 september my birthday.
3 months anniversary.
=)
so cool.
WAHAHAHS.
okay.
nothing else to update.
my sundays are boring what normally.
HAHA.
FROM CHERYL
:: ILOVEYOU !
// edit. AW i'm so touched. =)
me_________`e-leen *
6:56 PM
i'm tired.
when for appointment with mr jimmy today.
aha.
xiao gu so nice can.
CAN
haha.
anyway.
finished appointment, about 3.
went to RC.
terence, huili they all there.
waited for wanli, jieyun they all to come down.
den after that annabelle msg me ask me to go for the function.
haha.
say she pay for me 1st.
aiyo.
then i go lor.
quite fun la actually.
HAHA
okay i'm super tired.
mentally.
zzz.
me_________`e-leen *
1:06 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
skipped mtpre today.
went to find kerli and the rest.
went to RC.
got to know [ east view ] terence's gf, hui li.
nice girl.
really. =)
suddenly 492 alot of people today.
=)
almost 20 people.
=)
enjoyed today.
492 rocks.
saw daniel, mk, alvin.
memories sia.
sigh.
kinda sad yet happy.
saw terence too.
miss the old times alot man.
HAHA.
me_________`e-leen *
10:28 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
thanks guys. all of you.
really.
=)
*ele - haha of course you are. =) i will if i can k. haha.
*weichong - thanks brother. haha.
*josh - HAHA okay didi. but my sms kinda on strain now. LOL.
*cheryl.ms zombie - love ya
*tammy - will try. thanks dearie. =)
*kerli - HAHA yea. must work hard. thanks sister. love ya loads. =)
-----------------------------------
8 august.
PONDOK rocks.
lol.
haha its a fun place to hang out at.
not just for smokers
lol.
anyway.
went to shirley's house for her to change and bathe.
her dog is HORNY.
it played with me awhile.
den grabbed my leg and tried to hump my leg.
LOL?
gross omg.
shirley told me to roughly push its head away if he does that again.
OMG.
lol.
anyway,
her mom's laksa ROCKS.
HAHA.
super nice.
okay.
went to fisherman with shirley* jiajia* kenny [ jiajia's bf ]
then kenny's friend *shawn* came.
jiajia treated the 1st jug.
kenny treated the 2nd jug.
so nice can aiyo.
felt bad la.
haha.
marc came at about 9 plus.
with his friend joel and his gf stalin [ cool name can. ]
then jiajia, kenny and shawn left at about 11pm.
joshua and henry came after about 15 mins.
bought another jug.
i drank about 2 and a half mugs of Tiger beer.
HAHA.
small case.
i'm a good drinker.
XD.
the rest only drank one glass.
think me and shirley drank the most.
HAHA.
fun la.
went home at like wad, 3am.
LOL.
my mom didn't know.
cause my whole family slept early.
HAHA.
XD.
so fun please.
HAHA my 1st night out till so late without my mom killing me.
HAHAHA!
=)
9 august -wed
happy birthday singapore!
and happy birthday damien! =)
went down to the cafe.
listened to alot of things.
got to know annabelle, stephen, april.
april is so pretty!!
XD.
rather fun day.
HAHA.
but tiring.
whew.
me_________`e-leen *
11:39 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
7 august. monday
AHHH.
bored of out my skin.
i'm into those "i'm so lonely" mood again.
crap.
missed the rain today.
freak la.
rain so early for what.
now i cant play in the rain and feel it in my face.
can it rain again please??
i really need a rain bath.
it always make me feel SO MUCH better.
rain therapy.
HAHA.
-------------------------------------------------
what is happening to me again?the last time it happened to me i went crazy.literally did crazy and dumb stuffs.felt like the whole world is a stranger.too busy and preoccupied to SEE and HEAR me.i can't help having these feelings now again.i think i know the cause of it.but its hard to ignore these feelings.i really NEED the rain.sigh.the human mind/heart is destructive.VERY destructive. so what can i do now?i'm feeling lonely.abby has school until 5pm.kerli has after school test, only free at 5 plus.wanli cannot contact. =( i called her but no one answered.who else can i call?they are the only ones who KNEW.what can i do? tell me?help me please.i'm falling aparti have been through this i supposed.i AM desperate.for what?care, concern and love.sigh.everyone always says "i'll be there for you"when i want them to,who really is?FUCK THOSE FEELINGS.go away.WHERE IS THE DUMB RAIN?i need it IN my face.i dont even understand why i must feel this way.why? why? WHY?if i dont even know the answer, will you?will anyone know the answer?help me.please.i dont need a councillor now alright.i need a FRIEND.close friend.who i can pour my heart out to.even though i wont know what to say.because i dont even know why i'm feeling these again.you can probably stop reading my blog now because i'll be repeating the same things.but right now typing all these all makes me feel abit better.though i still need my rain therapy.ohh.i just recovered from fluhmm.nevermind.i rather be unwell physically than unwell mentally.since rain therapy helps with my heart and mind.i'll rather get flu/fever again.the feeling of being loved.i never had that.of course i know my friends DO love me.but i dont mean that.okay what the hell am i saying now?sigh.// were you really here for me when i needed you? were you?the first person that comes to my mind when i need someone is not you anymore.cause you were hardly here.too busy with someother people or things.there's ALWAYS something else.my name is just a TITLE.but seeing that everyone else now has a title.mine dont feel as important anymore.somehow.people wondered.why i hang out with those "ah lians" at 492.firstly "ah lians" is a disclaimer.they are not.infact some of them can be much much more matured than any of you.dont believe me?tell me and i'll intro them to you.why i hang out with them?one simple reason.they can always be there for me.they understand how i feel.though i'm the oldest.yet they've been through much more than me.so much so that it made them grow up faster.on the surface, they seemed rowdy and noisy.when we are alone,that's when the real us come out.it goes for me too.that's why i love those girls so much.because we are SIMILAR.how we feel, how we think.so alike.they are great listeners.and they dont council.they advise.its two different things.and the thing is,when i'm with them,sometimes i am more matured.yet at the same time,i can have fun with no restrictions.abby always says she wanna be like me.when she can do things without people saying stuffs.so?just do it.but she dont.but those girls make me feel welcome enough to.make a fool out of myself.be really stupid.yet i wont feel outcasted.sometimes, its only when you are down,will you really know who are your true friends.// i read your blog everyday.but do you read mine everyday?its just a title.a title.and i believe some other people shares the same title as me.or they have titles even better than mine.do you know you are my only one?no one else share the same title as you.guess you dont.i have enough of this bullshit in my head.this voice.my inner voice.telling me how pathetic i am.its true.i AM pathetic.bye.
me_________`e-leen *
1:49 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
BLEAH.
updates on yesterday.
3 august.
school was alright.
except the fact i was still sick.
and couldn't concentrate on my work.
darn it.
it was the 1st time i didn't finish my work 1st in class.
shoot.
anyway.
went to play pool with henry at bedok.
ahhh.
i lost 5 times. =(
MUST BE caused i sick.
LOL.
must be lor!
cannot be i so lousy please!
i mean like.. i beat fang xiang before!
lol.
and i never touched pool for like.. months.
hahaha.
i shall challenged henry again soon.
HUMPH.
henry sent me home after pool.
on the bus super funny.
the bus was rather packed so we were standing at the entrance.
then this indian uncle wanna go down the stop.
squeezed his way past henry.
but accidentally bumped until him.
then de uncle diao [glared at] him and "tsked" at him somemore.
LOL.
then henry damn funny.
he was like,
"wa lau ehh. this is de entrance go down from here bumped until me i never say anything already still "TSKED" me."
HAHAHA.
funny.
okay went home.
buahas.
4 august. TODAY.
went to orchard with kerli* wanli* pearlyn* valerie*
so fun.
tried on the milk-coloured dress at wisma.
SO GORGEOUS i tell you.
$69.90.
anyone wanna sponsor?
LOL.
i kept thinkin of it on the way to cine.
omg.
so nice.
ahah.
then some stupid things happen.
then we went home.
//edit: i cut short the whole story cause i'm lazy.
HAHA.
sorry.
me_________`e-leen *
9:48 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
erm.
ya.
2nd august.
finished school early cause our lecturer [BAN SOON] on mc.
yay.
banban sick
HAHA.
went to tm with huiying* azli* cheryl* khairiah* afinny* atiqah* xin ni*
they ate at long john while i wait for kerli.
kerli and kaijuan came.
1st thing kerli asked azli.
"you play guitar right? you guitarist right?"
azli: *shocked* EHH. how you know?
LOL
funny.
went walk walk with kerli and kaijuan.
daniel came at 3 plus.
went to X-craft.
got a third eye piercing.
daniel sponsor. XD
henry came at 4plus.
kerli and daniel went off for movie.
kaijuan went home.
went down to the cafe with henry.
bus ride super cold.
did Basic Training.
lalala~
went back to tamps.
ate at bk.
went home.
NAHH.
3rd august.
had a sore thraot.
inflammation kind. not no voice kind.
of course abit no voice la.
but yah.
school is like. ZZZ.
was sick la.
serious flu.
BIG HOT sun.
i can sneeze a thousand times.
super cold.
told banban i sick wanna go home early.
Z.
he said WAIT.
then forget about me.
dont care him already.
went to find kerli they all.
cause stacy had some taiji.
xiao mei mei stuffs la.
i haven reach settled already.
went to 492.
saw ALOT of ppl.
terence [east.view]* shu lei* weilun* randy*
and gerald that group.
then came along wei chong with his KIM hair.
LOL.
so beng.
hahaha.
okay.
erm.
felt more sick.
basketball court windy.
went to kerli's house.
saw a weight scale.
OMG.
i'm dying.
i weighed only 38kg!
WTF.
THIRTY-EIGHT KILOGRAMS.
i'm dying soon.
i need more food.
as long as i found out.
i cooked maggi. and ate lasagna.
felt bad eating kerli's food.
but ya her mom asked me to eat.
and i think i better eat more.
omg.
omtian.
omdi.
okay.
that's all.
feed me okay guys?
i'm all bones now.
no skin even.
me_________`e-leen *
9:21 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
yesterday jerome asked me blog.
today MINKAY asked me blog.
so i shall blog.
school's alright.
i finished my work fast.
=D
as usual.
wahahaha.
went to meet asshole A and asshole B.
work stuffs.
assholes kept bullying me.
=(
okay.
end of story.
happy MINKAY?
XD.
BBFF's BFF.
okay complicated.
bleah.
// excuse me. i AM sensitive okay.
and its obvious that i'm dulan liao right?
cannot be more observant and sensitive issit?
GUYS.
whats wrong with u.
omg.
bunch of assholes.
i'm not the prettiest girl.
or the most demure girl.
BUT i'm STILL a girl afterall.
you have no right to say stuffs like these about me.
faggots.
me_________`e-leen *
12:15 AM
